babe i was awake all night long

hey world! :)

blogging..hmm. it has almost become something that i have left behind, something that ought to be RIP for awhile and now it's back in action again haha!
few weeks ago, i was sorta 'busying' with SAM final, yeah u get what i mean with that quote? lol. there's this tiny effort i made for it but i doubt it will make some great difference you know? i wouldnt want to be nervous over the result because it mainly will never get to affect my major :)

oh well, since im free like officially, so will anyone please call me up for any party shit or whatsoever? i mean, NORMAL party. fully emphasize on tht term haha! also, i have left myself outdated like fucking seriously of MOVIES! believe or not tht i still havent watched TTW and 2012 when everyone cant stop boasting bout 'em! yeah all my smart ass darlings have either watched 'em with flings, bf, family or alone and dump me just like that! grrrrr ><

yesterday, was off to Mist for High School Crush event with kavi, tnng, justina and kat. and tnng was the only one who followed the dresscode, uniform! lol but anyhow, it was another wasted night. i really hate the idea of trance&techno mixing with r&b or hiphop! soooo boring and imagine you can yawn all night long. sighh. pictures are with kat and shes off to Bali for now. I MISSSSSS YOU!!! :(

okayy i seriously have nothing much to say. life is boring. i always have this idea of virtual excitement. when you thought you will be damn excited over sth, yet when it really comes, excitement doesnt actually exist. sighh.
but i think i miss you ,again. fuck.

p.s im NOT attending college's prom. haha i choose to tell you here so tht u wont busy searching up and down for me when tht night comes. lol i noe u will ! :D have fun peeps!

the blonde salad

cute, no? i find all her pictures interesting and fun! unlike most of the other fashionists out there, dead boring. lol. but shes a damn poser i must say! :p CHIARA FERRAGNI you rocks! and oh, she has a lookbook acc too :)

try to sweet talk

some quickie update of my daily craps!

joshie said that my blog is boring, so apparently he thinks his unhealthy dosage of lifestyle is amazing. and i DONT stalk ur freaking blog okay, i read blogssss and blogs are meant to be public! :S

thinkin of next month, i feel like tearing! next month is gonna be the saddest month of the year cause my bloody allowance will mean nothing to me. i wont get to spend on apparels. i mean, those daily inspirations ones. prom ticket, prom dress, debts with daddy and you see, i have calculated the balance amount which is like 200bucks?!? and after eating and all, become a negative amount :(((( life sucks! it turns worse when mommy is being soo mean that she...i doubt she will hand me a stack of cash for my bday present. and so she say a fine dinner will do! FMFL !! T.T i would now be the saddest person alive haihh..

listing for novembers AFTER FINAL :
1) get myself a prom dress. i feel like having a long sleeves one but so far, i havent been seeing anyone wearing long sleeves to prom. i mean like, i would feel so much being myself with long sleeves. i dont usually show back or front...or perhaps is time to make a difference? hehh :P

2) dye my freaking fugly hair! OMG it's soooo ugly that i feel ashamed everytime im ready to step out of the house meeting people. the baby black portion has already grown about 7cm and the rest of the portion is like dying and very yellowish, veryyy unhealthy as tho i have some disease goin on with me or sth >(

3) the MNG red-quilted bag/the leopard print tote? :D one of the very few classy bag i 've eva seen. money limitation but i dont care. once get my money, im sooo hunting it down! help me chooose people. go see and tell me what you think cz i cant afford both! :(

4) killer heels!

see now im so broke and...im gonna give you some heart attack....i just banked in some amount for sequinned leggings and spider webs tights! HAHAHA! say i lost my sense, i know :D
okie im done with my complaints now :)

my wonderwall

here comes a few thoughts in mind,

i think

black is playing safe

white brings angel alive

gold catches attention that you lust for

purple is the contrast of fantasy and reality

blue neutralizes the sore

red shows how passionate you are

and green is the oddest color alive ;;

and for those whom i feel,

dont apologize for how you feel, because it's like saying sorry for being real

life is tough. but live with it. never regret for making a choice, because at some point, you wanted it. it's okay when deep inside, people around will never understand how you feel because we werent born with enough middle fingers to let 'em out.

distraction and pain are meant to wake us up and learn. deal with the pain because avoiding just show how loser you are. you could get whatever you want out of your life, but first, never be afraid to try.

cling to your imperfections. they are what makes you unique :)

dress code: black. CHECK!

happy happoo belate 18th to my darling bean! ;)

and so, she hosted her bday party @ Sanctuary, The Curve on 17.10.09

in every sense, it was definitely a great night to be remembered. at least, no dramas =]

john aka the daddy and I were one of the earliest guest that night. We had our meals in Apartment with jc and bean but ended up, it became sort of like a tiny weeny date for both of us as the lovebirds fled to somewhereeee :3

so yeap, we even had to pack over their ordered meals and drinks.

ian and lester they all bought her a Cappuccino ice-cream cake. not my taste tho, but hell so touching yo! haha

i think we are taking moreee lesbian photos haha

bimbo faces

with the 24/7 charmer darren ;] VOTE FOR THE PROM KING! and also the pervert-looking lestersiew hehe u suck la. black label could actually down youu.

nehhhh. the lock n key <3> highlights. oh and i swear wj and yeevee were of the most agressive dancers i had eva seen hahaha. moooovee and shakeee your ass yeahh :p

ian and kat posed until like superrr cute!! AWESOME :DD

you wanna? you wanna try the kisses? we all are great kissers!!

exclusively highlights for johnkwan :)

our gossipgirl shoot! haihh finally one picture with ian shafizal! ;)

mabie came late so i didnt get to take picture with you babe soweee :(

anyhoo, Sanctuary wasnt a really good place to dance, of cz i noe it's jz a bar nt a club. but for goodness sake, everyone managed to make it fun and happening. we even created our dance floor ahhaha. people there are olddd and i suppose tht we are the youngest there, like seriously serious!

after awhile of emo talkin, we headed back to hartamas to crave for Bestari's maggi goreng! nyummmm >)

tht's all for it. thanks for all bean!

i love bites

ello. been gone for awhile cz is either i was in a super busy mode or the another way round.lol plus i couldnt find anythg interestin to blog about.

guess i have been skipping classed non-stoppingly for the whole blardy week. quite silly tht i drove all the way from selayang and went for one class only- ACCOUNT :] such amazing me. and now, i think i have formed some phobia against OU, i have been driving there in and out almost everyday for different missions!yuuuck!

and also, being a lazy ass. too much of it and final is exactly 3weeks after! >(

friday was a memorable nite cz it's the first time for all 4 of us to drink together and all. everythg was for dear lanna who's already legally 18th now :) which means im the youngest!hehe. anyways, Ks,Ys and I went to usual place like hrtmas sq to makan and then same old routine for pools and foos in breakers. bday girl only joined us at 9 sth cause she had her awesome family dinner before that in Souled out. breakers was more packed than usual somehow . jwen and nic came to join us for awhile. very beri muka! :D

ltr, we has our drinking session at Blackhole at bout 11:30. amazing! we had this small celebration for lanna with kat's lovely self-made cupcakes for her haha!

we made her bite the candle, for fun!

jeng jeng jeng! kat's product. what do you think? hehehehe. can you read? it's HAPI 18 BITCH! bloody shortcut lol

oh..OH the ssssss..lll....uuuu.....tttt

sayang<3

they're mine! ;]

back home at 1:30am after all the tipsy. i mean ME! :S

p.s kavi did u take any video or pic when lanna opened our present?! i wannn it!

small little note for lanna:

shes a girl whos so fairytales-liked. sits next to me everyday in class. went through ups and downs throughout the year. partner in making sins, nerding, giggling and crying. although it's just one year for us to go so close, but it feels like years to me somehow. it's a gift for both of us to get so in touch and click in this one year. absolutely appreciate it. and for wht it's, here i make my promise to you tht i will always be by ur side no matter what, at anytime you want :] happy belated 18th!

another small note for KAVITHA VJ!

she called me bitch and i called her slut. yes thts hw we communicate. im putting this note on cz she demanded one AND i have always wanted to do one for her, just tht i tot it's was too late for her bd's over. BELIEVE ME SLUT! anyways, lookin at the few yrs back, we were in the same high school for goodness sake and we werent evn in tht hi-bye type of friendship. what we did was walking past each other, pretendin seeing no one. well, somehow within the whole year, it's like this really strong magnetic force actually make us attract to one another. tht closeness. absolutely undescribable. thers a reason for me to leave a space for u to be in my speed dial cz i know you're one of the very few that i would call up to just bullshit or cry or gossip regardless during the day or in the middle of the night. i dont care! :) also, remind me of ths. im belanja-ing u a shot for sure cz i still feel very bad hehe . dun hate me laa i love u! =D see? now ur note has overlengthed lanna's

Influence

mka love. always my favourite fashion icon.

they are so adorable : )

i wish i wish i wish to have Influence on my hand now!!

to luluandmom

yesh fucktard! finally people agree with me. she. even deleted my comment to her! =X

it's a hunger ; an endless aching need

today i went pavvy alone before meeting up with sukie and twin. and as i was walking along, passing by gucci, boss, juicy...one moment, i thought of stopping. the street is too long for me to walk and all of a sudden, i felt like crying on the street. Well funny me. But of cz i didnt as the security guard gave me a stupid stare. i was just really upset recently.

as usual, heading for F21 with a pair of blinded eyes. but i havent tried of missing any newly-open shops! there, you have COTTON ON located super near F21, infront of The Olive Tree. apparels there were pretty good, esp the price!! seriously, u wouldnt want to miss it. one lacey bra will only cost you MYR49 . as in pretty pretty kind not your usual triumph or whteva cheapskate brand. i swear they are evn better than LaSenza :DD
and my mood turned slightly better than before because of fashion :) it's saving me from hell directly.
indulged myself with 2statement tees frm F21. okay and my purse left about 15bucks from 160bucks? lmao. but so wht as long as im happy ryt.

instead of Pepper Lunch, we three had KFC. yea fast food :S long time no see! just so you know, i had been skippin any fastfood meal since early august. ughh but tht's the only restaurant that i could afford other than subway which was over-filled with ppl. fuck it.
psst : the minute i saw them, i almost cried and straight went into twin's arms.omgomgomg miss them sooooo badly!

ooooooi. wakeup! pictures section woman :PP

dont bother bout her. and so me and twin camwhored!

cute horrr?

retard retard!! dont you think we always end up doing the same expression? hahahaha

take one

take two.

i havent been smiling like that. thankyou darlings. i did enjoy my very wonderful afternoon with you both! lovesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

listening to :- Rose by Westlife

dont eva say no before you even tried

Victim A La Mode @Mist was pretty done esp when julia leong showing off her pieces, including the flawless piece i posted in the previous post! Mist itself, however, was less happening and disappointing a lil. Seeing crowds sticking to their own tables was boring. Anyways, before that, kat and i got john as our night driver, then drove all the way to bangsar to dine @Delicious after meeting with a friend of his. pretty fine the food there as usual, just that i couldnt finish the infamous Ice Choc after he said that it would just add a lil more fats on your waist. wtff i noe. by the time we reached, the event had started like minutes ago cz we were late indeed -_-

our only photo of the night! :( i looked abit too much here anyways. really lub the two K's! meant it!

makmaxmac :P

meili & shuen with us :) pretty perfect shots!

kat with her stella maris classmates

my daddy john haha! anyways gonna see daddy like everyday after college reopened, hes working there as an EYESORE! ; recognized him no? junyu ,my ex-classmates. still couldnt believe your first word to me is WTF?! :S

@Poppy. tonnes of these to keep us alive.

tsk tsk.

gone >(

mellllllll ; and this is meowwwww, am loving her more and more everyday

hanee buddy aka the ABC guy! *inside jokes* thx for everthing :)

ending the post with a camslutin pose with waikin LOL. look at mr.yin ,kacau saja :D

good nites peeps :)

sorry loves if i hadnt picked up your call or replied your msg cz i wasnt in the mood of talking at all. hope you do understand <3

wildfox and young free

those are the statements tees im looking for anyways :)

im bored atm.
waiting for mtv vma 09 to be screened at 2pm on the MTV Channel hehe.
and oh, my current top song recommendation would definately be ;
I Will Follow You into The Dark by Death Cabs for Cutie

trials had finalllllllllllly overrrrrr :D imma party like a rockstar and catch up with all my darlings!

tonight is gonna be a good nite, hopefully ("p
see you there hunns!